Thoughts of the day.

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One.  I really need to do laundry. I think if my laundry room looked like this instead of like the basement of a dorm, I would be more excited about it. I love cute laundry rooms. picture from HouseandHome

Two.  Trev comes into town tomorrow =D. I can't wait to see him. Ain't he cute?

Three. I need to go study. I wish I looked as content when I study as this man does.

Last night I went over to my friend Abby's house with a few of the senior CCM ladies, (by the way, Abby has a remarkable vintage shop which can be found here. Check it out, great stuff for extremely reasonable prices!) While we were there the senior girls were talking about their preperation for leaving for NYC and LA to do their senior showcases. I have to admit, a part of me got a little sad. 

It felt weird because for the first time in...pretty much EVER, I wasn't sure if that would be me in 3 years. For the first time, I didn't know for sure if I'd be pursuing acting when I graduate. And while that's what scares me and makes me a little sad, I guess that's also the beauty of it for me. I'd rather be questioning myself now, and trying other things, than having these thoughts when I'm living in LA with a BFA in acting not knowing if it's the right career for me. 

For the first time in my life, I'm not in that world anymore. It's not to say I won't be. But I could not be. That really hit me yesterday.

The other night when I went to see the Senior Showcase for Musical Theatre, I was SO excited. It was wonderful and enjoyable. They got to the last song which they dedicated to anyone who had "given their life to the stage",  and as soon as they introduced it,  I KNEW that I would become emotional. It was about why they perform. And I started crying. I don't mean a single glistening tear on my cheek. I mean I was BAWLING. Embarrassingly bawling my eyes out watching them sing this song.

That was really hard.

But then, I took a step back, took a deep breath, and remembered that this decision makes me happier on a daily basis. It REALLY does. I feel like a new person right now.

I just have to remind myself that acting and (hopefully) my talent for it isn't going anywhere. I know I can go back to that. But for now, I'm so glad that I'm traveling down new paths to see what else is out there.

Speaking of which.

Tomorrow I need to bring in 3 objects to Interpersonal Communications that are close to me and/or shape me as a person.

Wonder what I'll bring...

'Til next time...

-C