My feathers are ruffled.

Oh boooy.

Here I go.

Gettin all stressed out.

I really shouldn't be blogging when I have so much to do but I think this will make me feel better and then hopefully will make my to do list seem a little less daunting.

 It's 11:04pm and I still need to finish my Fundamentals of Directing portfolio.

I have such little motivation to do this portfolio.

I'm also so stressed out about all of this financial aid crapola.

Money just makes me want to rip my hair out.

I need a job.

In order to get a job, I need a car.

In order to get a car, I need a job.

See how that works?

I was also sitting down tonight to calculate how much debt I'll have when I graduate.

It doesn't look too pretty.

I know education is an investment, and it's important,

and I'm glad that I go to UC,

so I wouldn't change it.

But BOY oh BOY.

I'm also trying to figure out my summer plans.

I want to stay in Cincinnati,

take classes,

work,

maybe do a show.

But in order to stay here,

and in order to take classes,

I have to pay.

Of course. Because everything costs money.

I miss Trevor.

I know I'll survive not seeing him very much for a little while.

I know eventually it'll pass.

I just get bummed sometimes because I know it will be like this for a good chunk of the next 3 years.

Not that I'm complaining.

I'm SO happy and excited for him to have these opportunities.

But on nights like tonight,

when I'm all flustered and stressed,

I wish he was here.

So.

There's my boo-hoo for the night.

I do feel better.

I guess I have to go be productive now.

Good night, everyone.

'Til next time...

-C