{Get some air.}

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I'm so very excited for Spring. I've been trying really hard lately to make myself happier in my current situation, and it's working. Going to therapy and working out when I feel myself getting anxious has really made a difference. I feel much more in control, which is a relief, lemme tell ya. I went to see my therapist today and she kept remarking on how well I seem to be doing, and it's true. 

I had a good day today.

Yet, I still find myself having nights like tonight where I look at my schedule of classes, and just get plum sad. I know that its important that I build up my discipline and learn to do things and take classes that I don't like. I know that. I know I most definitely need that. But I want so badly to do things I'm passionate about, and when I'm surrounded by people who are doing that, I'm not going to lie, it does bring me down. I used to be one of those people, and even though I chose a different path, I just can't help but feel lost some days.

I know at the end of this I'll be glad that I've gotten my degree in communications, I just wish I could find more ways to do things that make me feel...alive in the meantime. 

I know that I tend to get really big ideas that are impulsive, instead of trying to make smaller changes to better my current situations. I'm working on that.

But I just have to ask...

 when is it "right" to change your situation 

and when are you supposed to just suck it up?

Oh, heavens.

-C

{Quick Post: Oh yes, it's Monday.}

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I'm a little nervous that I haven't even gone to my first class of the quarter yet,

and somehow my to do list this week is already overwhelming me.

Deep breaths.

Today will consist of class, a workout, checking some items off of my to do list,

and making some blog posts for this week :)

Off I go to get ready for my first class! 

Hope you all have a good Monday <3

-C

{Back to our regularly scheduled programming.}

Hey all!

I've been such an absent blogger the past two weeks, but I'm back!

I survived exams, had a wonderful Spring Break, and have returned to the Cincinasti.

Unfortunately, I've returned to 46 degree weather.

But I'm optimistic that will turn around soon!

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This picture makes me want to throw a dinner party so much it hurts.

I've got a million things I want to blog about next week.

So stay tuned :)

For now, I'm going to cuddle up in bed and watch How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days.

If only men really chased after women the way they do in movies...

Hope you're all having a great weekend <3

-C

{Spring has almost sprung.}

 Isn't this silverware caddy darling? It's from Etsy. Check it out here.

I am so plum tired,

and today is not a day to be lazy!

I woke up at 8:30 (which felt like 7:30) to try to get an early start on all of the things that must be done. My final paper is coming along slowly but surely. Cross fingers that my self discipline doesn't let me down because I don't want to be scrambling around tomorrow 

trying to do things at the last minute. 

That would be all too typical.

Hope you're all having a great Monday <3

-C

{Today}

 

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I had my first "real" therapy session today,

and I must say, I am so relieved.

I loveloveloved my therapist and I feel really confident that this process is going to help me.

I'll definitely be blogging a little bit about it because 

I think most of it is stuff that anybody can relate to.

I worked out immediately after my appointment,

and felt so good that I took such good care of myself today.

It really lifted my spirits.

Tonight, I looked at my To Do list before Spring Break,

and I admit, it caused me to stress a bit.

I also tried to make my budget for next quarter,

so I looked online at my Spring Quarter bill and it's not what it should be,

which means I have to go to the financial aid department tomorrow and figure that out.

 I could feel a knot in my stomach forming as I worried about what the problem could be and hating the fact that it's too late to call the office to talk to someone about it.

It's moments like that when I get irrationally angry that I'm stressing and spending so much money while feeling like I'm learning so little.

So naturally, I took a deep breath, poured a glass of wine, and turned on some Sex and the City.

I'm sure that the incorrect bill can easily be explained and fixed, 

and there is nothing I can do about it until tomorrow.

As for my to-do list, it will get done.

I'll be in Texas for Spring Break before I know it,

and then Spring will be here and I'll have new classes that I hope I can make myself proud in.

Almost the weekend.

-C

{Fairytale}

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Don't these images make you feel like you're in a fairytale?

I would love to wake up and make breakfast in that kitchen.

So darling.

Today is a slow day but I have much to get done for Finals week.

I can't wait for Spring Break.

Just a litttle longer, now.

Hope you're all having a good week.

Catch ya on the flip side.

-C

{Things changed and so have I}

Finding and keeping balance in my life is probably the biggest thing I struggle with. I had a counseling session last week and though it was just an initial interview sort of thing, the therapist said something that I found to be incredibly relevant.

He said that balance in life works the same way that a table's does. The legs of a table provide stability, the same way that in life you have the things that keep you stable and offer you security. He was asking me what mine were, and I told him what I thought a couple of them would be, but two of them were missing. Which would explain my problem with balance. When you don't have the other legs to lean on, you put all of your weight on the legs you do have, but soon, all of that pressure will cause them to break. In other words, don't put all your eggs in one basket, so to speak.

Love and life are so often lopsided. But I do keep trying to remind myself that there is more to me than one person, one relationship, or one attribute of my life. I've let the fact that I'm not acting right now make me feel worthless, and I just need to buck up and get over that. We're all three dimensional people and we have many things to offer.

So here's this, for anyone who can relate.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Fb0lJovyiM

-C

{A peek at my bedside table}

There is nothing worse than lounging comfortably in bed, 

only to realize something you need is not within arms distance. 

(okay obviously that's an exaggeration but you get the picture.)

That is when nightstand storage comes in handy.

However, my bedside table LACKs storage.

(it's the Ikea LACK side table. get it? ha ha ha) 

I was on a super tight budget for my room (as are most college students) so obviously considering this $7.00 option made a lot of sense.

I briefly thought about craigslisting one, but after purchasing it, and getting the items necessary to refinish it, I definitely would have paid more than $7.00. 

I can't even eat at Chipotle for that cheap.

So I went with the least expensive option.

I like it because it's open at the bottom, 

so it takes up less visual space than a bulky nightstand would have,

and that makes a big difference in this little room.

But I digress. Storage.

I didn't want a bunch of my ugly bedside table items to be strewn about, 

because that's just not very aesthetically pleasing is it?

So I bought this little guy:

It's the Socker Plant Pot from Ikea.

I have a serious love for galvenized steel.

I can't explain why but I adore it.  

This little baby only cost a $1.60 and it's perfect for holding the essentials.

I keep my remote, my phone charger, advil, chapstick, and a pair of glasses 

tucked away in here every night.

Take a peek:

Sorry for the terrible quality. It was taken with my crappy camera phone.

I'm realllyy thinking about investing in a good camera in the next month or so.

Cross your fingers I can find a good deal!

Anways, not a bad solution for $1.60!

I'm not sure if I'll stick with this nightstand situation for next year when I move apartments 

(mostly just because I get bored easily and I like to change things all the time)

but for now it's working swimmingly.

Also, just in case you're wondering...

-The books on the table are Home Rules by Nate Berkus and The One Hundred by Nina Garcia.

I love them both.

- The lamp is courtesy of HomeGoods which I believe cost $30.00

-The mirror leaning against the wall was a thrift store find. 
I believe it was .99 cents and I spray painted it with Rustoleum Metallic Silver.

-The flower vase is from TJ Maxx and I think it was around 5 or 6 bucks.

Well then, I'm off to play Chef! 

I'm making Trevor dinner tonight 

(I haven't seen him in a week and he lives blocks away. 

That's what the end of winter quarter will do for ya.)

I want to start preparing early in case I have any mishaps.

Which is likely...

Happy Friday!

-C

{Simple pleasures.}

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1. Waking up to a sunny day.

2. A particularly good cup of coffee.

3. Clean sheets.

4. Driving with a great song playing on the radio.

5. A spritz of your favorite perfume.

6. Checking things off of your to-do list.

7. Great hair days.

8. New magazines.

9. Getting packages in the mail.

10. Fun thrift store finds.

There are so many things I'm excited about for Spring.

There are some things that I've been meaning to get around to (like redoing my vanity, buying/refinishing a new stool, getting new lampshades for my thrift store lamps) and I think Spring time will be just the boost I need to get all of these things done. It can be hard to make yourself get busy doing things (even things you enjoy) in Winter, so I'm optimistic about what Spring will bring.

I'll be taking a packed schedule, so I know it won't be a walk in the park,
but there's nothing better than a fresh start. 

I always love the first week of a new quarter.

But first, I must get through these last two weeks of Winter.

I can't believe how time flies.

Have a great day!

-C

{Quick Post: I want Moore.}

Mandy Moore was my favorite dressed celebrity at the Oscars on Sunday night.

I think she looks stunning in this Monique Lhuillier gown,

and I adore her earrings.

Just lovely. 

-C



P.S. Happy Birthday Justin Bieber!! Iloveyou.