I'm so very excited for Spring. I've been trying really hard lately to make myself happier in my current situation, and it's working. Going to therapy and working out when I feel myself getting anxious has really made a difference. I feel much more in control, which is a relief, lemme tell ya. I went to see my therapist today and she kept remarking on how well I seem to be doing, and it's true.
I had a good day today.
Yet, I still find myself having nights like tonight where I look at my schedule of classes, and just get plum sad. I know that its important that I build up my discipline and learn to do things and take classes that I don't like. I know that. I know I most definitely need that. But I want so badly to do things I'm passionate about, and when I'm surrounded by people who are doing that, I'm not going to lie, it does bring me down. I used to be one of those people, and even though I chose a different path, I just can't help but feel lost some days.
I know at the end of this I'll be glad that I've gotten my degree in communications, I just wish I could find more ways to do things that make me feel...alive in the meantime.
I know that I tend to get really big ideas that are impulsive, instead of trying to make smaller changes to better my current situations. I'm working on that.
But I just have to ask...
when is it "right" to change your situation
and when are you supposed to just suck it up?
Oh, heavens.
-C
If you come across the answer to that question, PLEASE let me know!!
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