I don't know why insecurity finds the people who deserve it the least. I don't know life can't be like a Leave it to Beaver episode. I don't know why student loans have to be so complicated. I don't know why everything that tastes good has to be bad for you. I don't know why it bothers me so much that I don't think I'm funny. I don't know why they don't offer life scholarships. I don't why I don't find pedicures relaxing. I don't know why I worry so much. I don't know why it's so hard to see what everyone else sees. I don't know why driving makes me feel so much better when I'm stressed. I don't know why anyone ever has to have their heart broken. I don't know why I can't be a normal 20 year old. I guess I don't know what normal means. I don't know exactly what I'm going to do when I leave college. I don't know why I find that so embarrassing. I don't know why it's so hard for me to let things go. I don't know why I have to love Ben and Jerry's so frikin much. I don't know why I continuously watch The Bachelor after swearing it off every season. I don't know why Houston has to be so far away from Baltimore. I don't know why it can't be Christmas all year long. I don't know why the SMELL of Christmas makes me instantly happy. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with table settings. I don't know why I overreact to things a lot. I don't know who I would be if last year would never have happened. I don't know if I mean that in a good or bad way. I don't know why we have to make mistakes in order to learn. I wish we were just born with all that knowledge. I don't know why I can never find a perfect pair of blue jeans.
I don't know why I thought I should make this a blog entry, but I have.
The last couple of days have been a little trying.
I've had a lot on my mind, and while the blog is usually a place I like to work things out,
I try to blog when I have a little perspective and can offer some words of so-called wisdom.
But today, I don't have a whole lot.
So I just decided to write about the things I'm not sure of.
I think that's okay sometimes.
'Til next time...
-C
And if you did know? Life would be utterly boring and meaningless... don't you think?
ReplyDeleteBut it sure doesn't mean we stop asking "why"!
"I don't know why student loans have to be so complicated."
ReplyDeleteI knowww right? I'm going to a private school in the spring and I'm scared beyond belief!
I hope you find your answers soon; in the meantime, just be happy that your blog is super cute. :)
loved this post C. very much like me. we wonder a lot of the same questions. it's a good thing... i think. being that self-aware... all the answers are out there. ask and you shall receive :) xo. J.
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