{ not this week }

{via}

it's been a long week, folks. and it's only wednesday.

as exhausting as this week has been, i feel like i haven't accomplished near what i should have by now. i'm thankful to be working on some great client projects at the moment, my part-time job as program manager of the theater department at a local arts high school continues on, busy as ever, and as always, there are piles of dishes in the sink and mounds of clothes on the ground, waiting to be dealt with. 

sometimes being a grown up is just too darn much. i was so burnt out when i got home yesterday that i decided to crawl in bed with bentley, just for a moment, to warm up from the bitter cold. i ended up falling asleep for twenty minutes and when i woke up, i realized it was almost 5:30. trevor was going to be home soon and the house was still a disaster and i didn't have a clue what we were going to eat for dinner. i immediately felt guilty and was inwardly yelling at myself for being lazy. 

but then i stopped. why do we do this to ourselves? if you're exhausted, take a nap! who cares? if my apartment doesn't always look photo shoot ready and there's not always a delicious home cooked meal on the table, we all still survive. trevor doesn't even notice the dishes and he certainly doesn't mind eating indian food instead of my {mostly} questionable dinners. some nights are all about staying in bed with a movie and delivery. and that's perfectly okay. 

there are times when i get so frustrated by the fact that i don't have things down to a science. that im not always on top of my to do list, and my kitchen gets dirty and my laundry constantly needs to be done. but i'm trying really hard to let that go. not because i don't want those things to get accomplished, but because sometimes there are more "important" things. like taking a nap. or snuggling with bentley on the couch. or reading a stack of magazines that i haven't gotten to yet with a cup of coffee. 

life goes on, and i'll figure it out one day. 

it just might not be this week.