Okay, Okay.

I knowww that I didn't keep my promise to blog yesterday. The problem is, I have the opposite of writers block. I have so many things I want to write about that when I sit down to update, I end up writing something incredibly scatterbrained and end up deleting the whole stinkin thing.

 Similarly, I sat down to write a very different blog entry, but here is what I came up with instead...

I think college is kind of like an older version of junior high.

You're too young for this, but not old enough for that.

I don't like it much, y'all.

Right now is a really weird time. As much as I enjoy my college living and the benefits you have being a college student, I feel really helpless in so many aspects.

All I want is to be able to have a job so I can contribute to my own existance, but instead I'm in school shelling out $40,000 a year. 

I found out recently that I didn't get granted work study for next year, so my position at DAAP won't be able to be carried into my sophomore year, and I won't even find out until June 1st if I will be able to keep it for the summer.

This is so frustrating because I feel like I can't make any smart decisions without knowing what my financial situation will be. 

I think I've discovered my frustration with being at this stage in my life.

I'm really bad at building blocks to get to the point where I want to be.

The truth is, I know that this stage in my life is necessary in order to achieve the things I want for myself. But I lose sight of that often, and just get frustrated with how stressed out the cost of this particular "building block" makes me and my family.

Today is just one of those days where I want to sit in bed and hold my teddy bear.

Everything I want right now seems so far out of my reach,

which is very dramatic of me, but what can I say? I is who I is.