It's my last night in Chicago, and while I know in the morning things will feel a whole lot brighter, I can't deny that the weight of leaving this beautiful city has finally hit me. I had my last Chicago dinner tonight with Alaina and Danielle - it was only right to have it at Feast, where we had our first meal together just over a year ago.
On the way home from dinner, they asked me what my favorite Chicago memory was. It's nearly impossible to pick because honestly, this whole year has been one amazing memory in and of itself.
But then I remembered this moment:
But then I remembered this moment:
It was from last August, at my first movie in the park (a free movie screening in the park where Chicagoans gather with blankets and snacks and wine). I can't even remember what movie was playing, but I vividly remember a huge wave of peace washing over me when I laid back and stared at the Chicago sky, knowing in that moment that I was in exactly the right place. I had no job, no money, no apartment of my own, and yet, life seemed pretty much perfect. I was home.
There's no doubt in my mind that I'm leaving the Windy City a better person. A year ago I was just barely on the brink of feeling like my life had some direction. I know many of you feel that way right now, and let me tell you, I am the last person who can say that I have it all figured out, but I can tell you that you can do so much more than you think you can. I have achieved things in this last year that I never thought I would be able to. I have grown up, become more confident, more daring, more ambitious. Not only has this city inspired me to dream bigger and hold myself to a higher standard, but it's introduced me to people that (without fail) reach out to help me, believe in me and instill nothing but absolute faith in my capabilities. For that, I am eternally grateful.
I do believe that life is far too short to be complacent and it's up to you to make your life the story you want it to be. Chicago has been the most amazing chapter. I feel nothing but love for this city and all of the people in it, and I couldn't be more grateful for the last 365 pages.
Chicago, you are not an easy city to leave. Thank you, thank you for all of the memories.
Caitlin, this is such a sweet post! We've connected on Instagram before and I had to just say Congratulations on this new chapter of your life! Big moves are scary and sad and exhilarating but risk always seems to pay off. I should know, I've made 3 cross country moves in 5 years! Good luck to you, girl. Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDeletei love this post. i can't wait to see your new adventure! you will do great!
ReplyDeleteso proud of you Cait!
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