1. Some days I feel bad at everything: a bad friend, a bad girlfriend, a bad blogger, a bad employee, and a bad intern. When you spread yourself in many directions, it's endlessly frustrating to feel like you're failing when you feel like all you do is work your butt off to keep up. Most nights I'm still working at my computer when Trevor goes to sleep, and when I do shut down and step away early, I realize later that things didn't get done that needed to. It's a vicious cycle and I still don't really know how to manage my time better.
2. I hate being jealous, but I see so many bloggers constantly purchasing new items from shopbop or planning rendezvous to Europe and it makes jealous that I struggle just to pay my ATT bill every month (at the same time, I'm lucky to even have a cell phone bill to pay, so I'm not complaining)
3. On that note, even though I am so so so excited about both of my internships this summer, I am stressed about how I'll deal with not having a paying job for that much time. My expenses are next to nothing for the summer because I'm living rent free, but I still feel uneasy about it.
4. I want to start my own design/decorating/styling business like so many others, but I have no idea what will separate my own services from theirs and I feel goofy saying it out loud.
5. I was really embarrassed that I didn't have much direction for a while and felt so unsuccessful that I started avoiding talking about myself and became a lot more shy the past couple of years. Even though its gotten better, I still struggle with it and sometimes I feel like it makes people not like me when they first meet me.
6. I hate that I don't know where I want to end up after graduation.
7. The blog world is really materialistic and sometimes it scares me that this is such a big part of my life. I worry that I will forget to remember that none of this stuff really matters.
8. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and go to school elsewhere for interior design. It makes me sad that I'm now just in a place where I'm trying to hurry and finish my degree in the least expensive way possible, and that I don't think I'll feel much pride when graduation day comes.
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Here are some of the other women sharing things they're afraid to tell you:
1ST WAVE: Carly: A Simple Affair / Cassie: Coco + Kelley / Christine: Court & Hudson / Caitlin: Sacramento Street / Roxy: My Cup of Te / Crystal: Blog / Meg: MIMI+MEG / Ashlina: The Decorista / Katie: Modern Eve / Erin: Apartment 34 / Erica: Design Blahg / Christine: Miles to Style / Franki: Life in a Venti Cup / Sue: The Zhush / Erika: Radiant Republic / Gabrielle: Savvy Home / Monika: The Doctor’s Closet / Naomi: Design Manifest /Tobe: Because It’s Awesome / Becca: {extra}ordinary wonders / Lynzy: Sparkling Footsteps / Hitha: Hitha On The Go / Sarah: Note To Self / Liz: So Much To Smile About / Sarah: Blogstar / Alissa: The Goods Design / Jessie: Style & Pepper / Erika: Small Shop Studio / AV: Long Distance Loving / Maggie: Maggie Rose Blog / Nicole: The City Girl In Me / Priscilla: The Best Laid Plans / Jen: Concrete Jungle DC / Janelle: Food Fashion Fitness / Natalie: East Coast Chic
2ND WAVE: Design for Mankind | Little Brown Pen | Beautiful Hello | Curating Style | Sweet Fine Day | The Jealous Curator | Happy Days | Sage & Berries | Really Handmade | Peck Life | Satsuma Press | Rena Tom | For the Easily Distracted |The Hemborg Wife | Vitamini Handmade | Courtney Khail Stationery and Design | Meg in Progress | Dando Photography Blog | Widdershins22 | Alison Citron | Pink Moon Daily | Just Pretty Things | From China Village | Tea with Me | The Darling Ewe | Not Your Average Ordinary | The Electric Typewriter | Elleby Design | Parsimonia {Secondhand With Style} | Life as an Artistpreneur | Hello Cupcake | Dellie | The A &B Stories | Pretty Little Things | Feistyelle | Nib & Zed | Well and Cheaply | I Ripple. I Dance. | Whitfield Awesome Blog | Foxtrot Press | Dry As Toast | The List of Now | Apple Blue | For the Love of | Four Flights of Fancy | Miss Modish | Snapshots & Secrets | Dirty Laundry |Bubby & Bean | Penelope’s Press | Little Nostalgia | Vale Design | Pikaland | Fleurishing | Print Pretty | Vespa Tales | Hazel & Agnes | Amanda’s Musings | Mo’ Funk Designs | Ordinary Mommy | Camp 1899 | In Honor of Design | Liberty’s Yarn | Love, Life & Pictures | Stacey Winters | Owl in the Rain | Living Life Creatively | Emma Elizabeth Clease | I Live in Vacouver Now | British Cream Tea
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