Thoughts of the day.

One.

Two.

Three.

One.  I really need to do laundry. I think if my laundry room looked like this instead of like the basement of a dorm, I would be more excited about it. I love cute laundry rooms. picture from HouseandHome

Two.  Trev comes into town tomorrow =D. I can't wait to see him. Ain't he cute?

Three. I need to go study. I wish I looked as content when I study as this man does.

Last night I went over to my friend Abby's house with a few of the senior CCM ladies, (by the way, Abby has a remarkable vintage shop which can be found here. Check it out, great stuff for extremely reasonable prices!) While we were there the senior girls were talking about their preperation for leaving for NYC and LA to do their senior showcases. I have to admit, a part of me got a little sad. 

It felt weird because for the first time in...pretty much EVER, I wasn't sure if that would be me in 3 years. For the first time, I didn't know for sure if I'd be pursuing acting when I graduate. And while that's what scares me and makes me a little sad, I guess that's also the beauty of it for me. I'd rather be questioning myself now, and trying other things, than having these thoughts when I'm living in LA with a BFA in acting not knowing if it's the right career for me. 

For the first time in my life, I'm not in that world anymore. It's not to say I won't be. But I could not be. That really hit me yesterday.

The other night when I went to see the Senior Showcase for Musical Theatre, I was SO excited. It was wonderful and enjoyable. They got to the last song which they dedicated to anyone who had "given their life to the stage",  and as soon as they introduced it,  I KNEW that I would become emotional. It was about why they perform. And I started crying. I don't mean a single glistening tear on my cheek. I mean I was BAWLING. Embarrassingly bawling my eyes out watching them sing this song.

That was really hard.

But then, I took a step back, took a deep breath, and remembered that this decision makes me happier on a daily basis. It REALLY does. I feel like a new person right now.

I just have to remind myself that acting and (hopefully) my talent for it isn't going anywhere. I know I can go back to that. But for now, I'm so glad that I'm traveling down new paths to see what else is out there.

Speaking of which.

Tomorrow I need to bring in 3 objects to Interpersonal Communications that are close to me and/or shape me as a person.

Wonder what I'll bring...

'Til next time...

-C

Bathing Suit Season.

Bathing Suit Season is here.

The shopping commences.

May I ask what that little ruffle is doing?

This is supposed to be for "extra" coverage.

If you would like to give me extra coverage, then how about we extend that ruffle to my ankles?

I guess it's a good thing Alessandra Ambrosio and I have such similar body types.

Makes shopping for a bathing suit just THAT much easier!

POPULAR! I know about popular.

So.

Right now this little humble blog of mine averages about 50 hits a day, maybe 60 if I get crazy and post my updates on facebook.

Some say that talking about celebrities and current events can increase your daily hits through the google search engine.

I say that I have much too much integrity to stoop to the gutter of just trying to make my blog POPULAR.

I mean, I write about awfully important things.

I couldn't just EXPLOIT my beloved blog for a few extra hits.

No.

I will continue to post just as I do, and wait for the success to come all on its own. 

So, have you guys heard the latest on Kim Kardashian? Yeah her and Reggie Bush totally broke up.

  I almost mistook Kim for myself in that picture! We look STRIKINGLY similar in our bikinis.

But that doesn't even COMPARE to what's happening on Dancing with the Stars. That Kate Gosselin could use some serious work and the judges aren't afraid to tell her!

It's really a shame about Reese and Jake, too. They made such a sweet couple.

Wellll, it looks like that's all for today!

'Til next time...

-C

6 words.

In my Interpersonal Communications class we had to write a journal entry

summing up our life in 6 words up to this point.

Mine was "I start, I stall, I restart."

I know it's dorky, but I meant that my life personally sort of reminds me of driving a stickshift.

Not that I've ever driven one.

I refuse.

But I imagine it being a lot like learning how to drive a stickshift.

You start, you try to go up a hill, you don't know how, so you stall.

And you have to start all over.

It's difficult at first, but the more hills you go over, the more you know how to deal with them,

and you can recognize them for what they are.

Literally, a bump in the road.

But a classmate of mine read his,

and it made me smile.

"Be Strong, Live Life, Love One."

I know it's not poetry or anything, but when he explained what it meant I thought it was really sweet.

"Be strong" was important to him because he had experienced hardship in his family recently involving death of a loved one.

"Live Life" is something he said he felt close to because he's very outgoing and is always up for anything.

and "Love One" was included because he said he was brought up to find that "one girl" who he loves and to take care of and love her forever.

And then I started weeping.

I mean, not really.

But if you  know me at all,

you know that I let out a good squeal right about then.

I'm pathetic.

At least I embrace it.

What are your 6 words?

'Til next time...

-C

If I was a grown up...

I'd live in this:

Home is where the heart is by TheEyeSquinta on Polyvore.com

and get married like this:

Antique Winter Wedding by TheEyeSquinta featuring Zac Posen dresses

Right.

Okay, well, back to dorm living and homework!

'Til next time...


-C

if i had my druthers part 2....

Love by TheEyeSquinta on Polyvore.com

Items in this set:
Queen Bed in Erin: Natural, $1,600
Diane James Peony Bouquet in Glass Bowl | Gracious Home | Product, $625
Office Furniture - Shop Our Stylish Office Desks, Office Chairs & More..., $400
Sheesha Euro Pillow, $305
Floor Lamp., $280


My bedroom would forever look like this.

If I had my druthers part 1...

So, for being in my early college years, I've had a few humble abodes of my own.

My Baltimore Apartment.

 Chicago Apartment.

And now...

My Dorm.

This is basically just my wall of things that I find aesthetically pleasing.

Flowers always brighten my day.

Now, if I had my druthers for my next apartment,
these items would be on my wish list:

source: zgallerie.

 source: anthropologie.

source: zgallerie.

source: pottery barn.

source: pottery barn.

 source: unknown.

I have a big thing for white right now.

Is it obvious?

Oh, to dream.

'Til next time...

-C