Today on
The Everygirl,
Jess Constable is sharing her
latest Living Well column, discussing the recent lesson she learned about the importance of balancing friendships and family with your relationship. It is so well said and a topic that I think most of us can relate to, and it got me thinking about my own relationship.
When it came to making my decision to stay in Chicago, there were obviously many things to consider, but one of the biggest things weighing on my mind was my relationship with Trevor.
At this point, Trevor and I have been together for about six years. Our relationship is clearly extremely important to me. However, when I started my summer here in Chicago, I quickly fell back in love with the windy city and started seeing more potential for my career than I had ever anticipated. Because I knew my financial situation wouldn't allow me to return to school in Cincinnati, I had to make the decision to either stay in Chicago and see what it had in store for me and my career, or return to Cincinnati and finish out the year in my apartment with Trevor and all of my college friends.
The thing is, I've made decisions before based entirely on what would benefit my relationship, even if I knew that those decisions weren't always the best thing for me as an individual. While I think sacrifices in relationships are important and oftentimes necessary (especially later in life when you're married, have children, etc) I also know that in the end, if Trevor and I are not fulfilled or happy as individuals first, our relationship suffers, even when the intention is to better it. I have found myself in the past unhappy and putting too much pressure on my relationship to "complete" me when I've put my own needs and aspirations aside because I worried they would stand in the way of us.
Funnily enough, even though Trevor and I are long-distance right now, our relationship feels stronger than ever because we are both taking care of ourselves, and in turn, taking care of our relationship. I'm lucky that he supports me and loves seeing me happy, doing what I love, and moving forward with my life. Yes, I could have returned to Cincinnati and returned to my apartment right down the street from him and we could have hung out every single night together. But would it be worth it if every time he saw me I was moping about the loss of opportunity in Chicago or felt stuck and embarrassed that I wasn't doing more for myself and my career?
Sometimes we think that if we attach every ounce of ourselves to something, that will ensure that it stays close to us. And sometimes, that approach works. But I know right now that making decisions that are good for my own future ultimately means making decisions that are good for our future.
thanks for stopping in today everyone. lovelovelove to each of you.
-C